Wednesday, February 13, 2008

How I am feeling, Prayer requests

How I am feeling is a question I seem to get from everyone I talk to, so I thought some of my readers may be wondering as well.

I am pretty much mildly nauseas most of the time, although some days are better than others. I have yet to throw up at all, and usually can eat something, although often not just anything. I keep saltine crackers, water, and hard candies on me at all times, any of which seem to help when I get too uncomfortable. I try to eat a little something every few hours. I also learned this week that it is important to eat a little something in the evening, especially if I am at all hungry. I tried to ignore feeling hungry as we were just settling in to fall asleep the other night... and felt absolutely awful the next morning. I won't do that again!

I am also very tired. If I didn't keep reading on pregnancy websites and hearing from people who have been pregnant that being really tired is normal at this point, I would feel a little ridiculous. Although I rarely actually take 3 naps a day, I almost always want one every morning, every afternoon, and every evening. I usually let myself have one longer one, and sometimes one other quick one. Of course, 'longer' can mean anything from 40 min to 2 hours, depending on how I feel on a given day!

This quote was in the weekly email I am getting from Baby Center...
"I'm seven weeks pregnant, and I'm having every symptom in the book — from morning sickness to sore breasts. Is it possible to feel huge already?" — Janean

I laughed when I read this, because although my clothes basically still fit an all, I do feel a lot bigger already. And I have quite a few of the basic symptoms as well. But overall, I am not complaining. I am not throwing up, and for that I often give thanks.

Oh, the other thing I am experiencing is a lot of congestion, which apparently can be a pregnancy related symptom. This I would appreciate prayer for, as it is wearing on me. Plus, then I have trouble beathing at night, which makes it harder for both of us to sleep. And, congestion related coughing engages my gag reflex, which is the when I come closest to really losing it. All in all, I am ready to be done with the congestion.

Speaking of prayer requests, my big one is for my beloved's job situation. He is frustrated by the tediousness of the work, and by his supervisor's style of leadership...which includes up to 4 calls in a day reminding him to work hard and get everything done. And the salary just isn't sufficient. It already wasn't, and now we have a baby on the way. Not to mention things like me needing maternity clothes, prenatal vists, etc. I was going to blog a while back, but never got that far, how in early January, they were told 'positive changes' were coming to the comapany, which would lighten the workload and possibly raise salaries. These changes are supposedly coming in February or March. But so far nothing else has been said. So, we are praying for either really good changes to come quickly, or a new job to open up. The trick is, while working, he doesn't have a lot of time for job it has to be the Lord.

We had a major car repair recently, which I think just added the pressure on my beloved. He has taken to saying almost daily, sometimes multiple times a day how he needs a new job. Then last night, he asked me if I think he's a bad person, like lazy or something, because he doesn't want this job anymore. Poor guy. He's working his tail off, getting hounded by his boss like he isn't, and getting paid next to nothing for it....and he feels bad that he doesn't like his job!

God has always been faithful to provide for me in the past, so there is a part of me that is sure He will this time too. Then there is that human part of me that struggles every blasted time to have faith. Anyways, I know He will be faithful to provide again, I just would like prayer that the doors open soon, and that we recognize them when they do.

Well, I think I'll leave it at that for now. I really am trying to blog more consistently, but of course lately I have too easily allowed myself to sucked into reading pregnancy pages! But my desire is to get better. So, maybe I will!


OTRgirl said...

Good to know how it's going! On all fronts. It's seemed for a while like he needs a new job...

scarp said...

Yeah, he's had this same not good job since the end of August, and he took this one only because it was actually better than the previous one. So it has been since last spring since he has had a solid job.

Inkling said...

I'm praying for you. I'm learning too how to keep on encouraging my husband when he feels afraid that he's not providing well or that his job difficulties are a sign that his male identity is somehow being betrayed. My beloved thrives on respect, but when he has job struggles, he finds it hard to feel worthy of respect (or at least that's what I think he's feeling and thinking). It's a challenge for me, for I find it easier to be nurturing, loving, and tender. But while that's appreciated, he's looking for admiration and respect. I'm learning what that looks like in practical ways for him, especially when his job issues make him feel like he's failing me and his promise to my parents. You know, it never occurred to me how much pressure a godly man feels on a daily basis until I got married. They want so much to do the right thing, to provide, and to take care of their loved ones. It really gets them down when they feel like they are failing. It's also challenging for me to figure out how to keep him encouraged and feeling respected when I'm afraid and worried on the inside (not about his ability to provide, but about the whole uncertainty of the situation). Anyway, just know that I'm praying, and thinking lots about you.