I haven't been sure what to write, but I often find that writing is the best way to inspire myself, so here goes...
The biggest thing that comes to mind is this: the fact that I am going to move far, far away from here very soon has been hitting me a little more the last few days. I think this is for several reasons.
1) Moving back in with my parents is one of my signals that I am getting close to the end of my time here. It seems like just the other day that this point seemed way off in the future.
2) It just really isn't that far off. Tomorrow is August 1st. I leave in (late) October. That means 2 months from now (plus a little) I will be packing up to leave.
3) My brother and his wife announced to the family this past weekend that they are expecting their first baby. I am very excited for them. I am also sad for myself, as I will not be here when the baby is born, and may very well not meet the baby in his/her first year. Maybe I will, but I have to brace myself for the possibility that I won't since it looks like our money situation could be pretty tight.
4) There are a few things happening that are going to keep the time moving along pretty quickly. For example, a bridal shower is being thrown in my honor at the end of August. When FB comes to visit, my family is throwing a "Rochester reception". And I found out yesterday that I have a full time job until I leave, starting Monday. (The job sounds easy and laid back, pays decently, and has the comfortable hours of 8:30-4:30.)
Ok, that was easy part. The hard part is determining exactly how I feel about all this.
I don't know if I've explained here at all how often I get asked the same questions. One of the very common ones is, "So, are you getting excited yet?" Let me just state for the record that I have been excited for a year now! Of course I am excited - I am finally getting married, to a really, really great guy (may I say, The Perfect Guy)! So yes, the fact that the time for me to leave is quickly approaching does cause excitement for me. I am excited, first of all and obviously, to be near the man I love. I am excited to embark on an adventure, learning a new language and culture, becoming a wife. I am excited to be near and among good friends that I have not so far been able to spend a lot of time with.
I think the next emotion I can identify is that I am nervous. Nervous to embark on a new adventure, learning a new language and culture, becoming a wife. Nervous to try and deepen and broaden relationships with good friends that I have not so far been able to spend a lot of time with. Nervous to leave all my family and friends here. Ok, nervous might not be strong enough for that last statement. Occassionally terrified to leave all my family and friends here. Ok, terrified might be a bit strong, but you get the idea.
Mmm, I think that is the best I can do for the moment on that...
So, apparently I have simply had good windows for plants and marvolous luck on the watering and feeding. Well, ok, maybe I had a little bit of a clue. But I managed to overheat and shock the plant going to my aunt in the process of moving, and I really haven't the faintest idea on how to revive it. I'm taking my best guess and hoping it is at least still alive when I take it to her on Saturday.