...but most of what is going on with me right now isn't/can't be public information. So every time I sat down and thought about posting, I sort of hit a brick wall. Plus, in case you didn't pick it up from my last, very short post - life was a little crazy last week. But I decided to try sharing some of the emotions without the situational details I can't get into.
There are some situations in my fiance's life right now that leave my usually confident man feeling pretty unsure about what God is doing right now. That in itself is a bit unsettling for me, but the situation impacts us both in some very real ways that are a bit difficult. And in talking that out, we came as close as we ever have to a fight. Nothing huge, and in some ways comforting to me to walk through and come out the other side intact. Needless to say, long distance conversations on these issues is not ideal, and that upcoming visit is looking better and better (11 days and counting...).
For me, there is an area I feel I have waited in for a really long time - and have recently discovered that I may have to wait even longer. So it was interesting to read OTRgirl's post about resting in the Lord. It made me realize that I am sort of avoiding the Lord on this issue. I sort of forced myself to prayer journal last night, which is a step in the right direction. But I think I really need to just wait on Him a bit (which requires purposefully carving out some time).
Finally, last week was just full of feeling like people were working against me instead of with me. Students doing stupid things I expect, especially at the end of the year. Teachers and parents though - come on!
Anyways, I should get back to work. Maybe now that I've gotten past the brick wall, I'll be able to write again soon...